Hokay.

Somehow I have found myself, at this very moment, in front of a television watching TRL. LL Cool J is talking about hiphop. He said something that I find extremely blunt and intelligent. When asked where he believes hip hop is going he answered with something like this: Radio stations are only playing songs that appeal to 13 and 14 year olds such as Lil Wayne and most "I'm awesome" gangster rap. People that are 25 and older enjoy more hip hop instead of the rap that younger people enjoy, but radio stations don't play that. He then said that he will keep trying to relate and appeal to a more mature audience because he can't act like he's 14 years old for the rest of his life.
This really relates to how I feel about hip hop music. I really enjoy solid lyrics and beats, however I find the music of most popular artists to be completely juvenile. Go Cool.

I recently suffered through about half of a campus ministry service called "Monday Night Bible Study." The name is not misleading. It is a bible study. However, it is what is done after study of the bible that makes or breaks what I think of you. I was very turned off by the way that they require the group to stand while reading the biblical text of choice. While I will not tear into their rituals, I will discuss from my own experience, how they apply the text that they study.

I study biblical text for my own knowledge and understanding, and do not apply what I learn what my personal life, nor do I enforce whatever ideals I form onto others. The fact that I was asked to stand while they read, after I chose to stay seated, was complete bullshit and quite possibly the most Christian thing that they could do with that decision. Had the bible study been completely ecumenical, they would perhaps understand that the text is not a divinely inerrant nor infallible piece of literature. It does not take long when studying biblical text to see the imperfections and historical fallacies within dates, translations, and canons (which I think are completely...fill in the blank). In there study, there is a consideration of context, however they still chose to interpret the text literally.

This ignorance is an overwhelming force on me. I used to fight for the salvation of a faith that I knew and had experienced all of my life. The ominous cloud of Christianity and the taint is has become looms over my every move and breath. I am, however, resilient. My goal will be to bring this regime to its dirty, whorish knees. This is not to say that all Christians are bad people, and that not all Christians "get it." For those people, I will be thankful for and doing whatever I can to help them. Helping them, by doing what I am good at, is chopping the kneecaps of the dark bullshit majority of the Christian faith.

I will continue my sojourn into campus ministry here at Campbell University, and I will continue to pick them apart and take them out of their comfortable places until their feelings of displacement cause them to use their brains for more than the glory of God.

I am going to be starting my Christmas list soon. Please sign your name next to the gift that you will be giving me. You probably owe me anyway.

The myspace account that I was using for my music has mysteriously disappeared. I have created a new one at this location. There is a song called "Ornamentals" on this site. I wrote it last week after hearing about the passing of a great man that I spent quite a lot of time with. I have lost many people in my life to death. Each instance has been its own, but there a similarities in some stories that I put together in this song. As my music is an expression of experiences that I have had, this song is quite graphic and may not be what some people need to hear right now. I will not take offense if some people don't want to hear that song.

Time to smoke.

Bye.